Hey there. You found me. I found this again. Blogging. Hmmm … I’ve got a little too much coffee in my bloodstream tonight and a little Death Cab for Cutie tunes playing in my earbuds. The kids are all in bed, settled for the night. I have this stinky dog by my feet, and just the light of a candle on the mantle and computer screen lighting the room. It’s a little eerie, but also so very comforting. With a house full of busy bodies, it can feel a little chaotic, but it’s these nights where I can collect my thoughts and mental energy. It’s like my recharge … it’s when my thoughts are clear and I can reflect and redirect. Much like winter.
I’m not really sure what I am doing here … or where I am going with this blog. Heck this might be the only post I post for a while. I might end up MIA for another 6 to 12 months. Time will tell. But for now, I’m here. I hope you are well. I hope life is treating you kindly. It’s been a long winter for this mama. It really took a toll on my mental health. Not saying I was dealing with a bout of depression … but I was really dealing with something. My body doesn’t care too much for the cold. And boy did we dip down in those temps this winter. And the snow. It’s pretty …. for a day. I love how my kids love it and the feel of those cold noses coming in for kisses and snuggles after all that hard playing and building. But my face yearns for warmth, for sunshine and heated breezes. My body longs for long stretches on warm fresh cut grass. My fingers wish for fresh earth falling between them. The smells, the sounds, I miss them greatly. Birds singing and children running and playing. Mowers humming and sprinklers tic tic tic ticking in the neighborhood. A cold beer after a day of tending and clinking glass to the fella by my side, together we made all this happen. Hard work and determination … we have all this. Wiping our brows and watching the children play. That is the life I love. The life I live for. The life I long for.
Winter be gone. You spread your joy … you gave us lovely eye candy and your beautiful holiday memories … but for real … crocuses and daffodils … you time is near … I’m ready to see your purple and yellow heads start popping up out of the earth ..
Spring I miss you. See you soon.